Whatever

I love you but the feelings you make me feel really eat me up. I feel like a total jerk. Guess I deserve this. Good night.

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The sky really looked pretty today, I just had to take a picture of it. :)

Hell, 2013.

  Next year (that's like... 10 minutes from now) I will…

     - Buy at least one book per month. Still. 

     - Have a photography day for every week.

     - Make a mood board to highlight special events.

     - Go on a coffee/milk tea shop hopping

     - Save at least 10 pesos per day.

     - Lose at least 10 pounds HAHAHA

     - Get a summer job!! :D

     - Read read read

     - Give my best everytime char lang but yes

     - Join charity works 

HYPED

 

Hyped before Christmas. Awyeah. :)

I'M FIIIIIIINE. I SWEAR.

I never thought I could ever look at the beautiful night sky with sad thoughts running inside my head. I dreamed of watching the stars with someone I love but when it actually happened, it didn't turned out to be so overwhelming and romantic. I got bruises and scars and all I could ever think about was how it's so not fair that it's so pretty up there when I'm living in such a shitty world where I will never be good enough for anyone. Not for my family, my friends, the organizations I get myself into, the course I'm taking up, him, and everyone else who chose to think less of me before they even had the chance to know me well. But I don't even care anymore because I'll soon be leaving, maybe this place, or this life, and everything about me will leave no trace, no mark. And I'll be just another soul..

Folk you.

 

I'm not exactly having the best days of my life right now. So, dear world, fuck you. Thank you so much. :)

Because I'm hungry, that's why.

The more I get to know the people around me, the more I realize I'm not the only one going through struggles. I'm not the only one who wants to lose nothing but weight. I'm not the only one who despises a family member. I'm not the only one who winces at the sight of technical terms in LTP. I'm not the only one who's judged. I know that these problems differ in degrees. But even though I know some people have it worse than I do, that doesn't take away the fact that I still have troubles of my own.

We all have a story to tell. We all have our little issues. We all have gone through shards and shards of pain. And sometimes, we fail to realize that.